People of this land

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I recently got published in the Advertiser, totally thrilled about having such a massive picture in there. When they called, for an interview with me, I seriously thought it would be a tiny picture and alot of writing along with it. So when my friend Ratih got the newspaper, the first paged I opened and there I was ‘BANG’ in my face!!!

It’s a beautiful feeling seeing yourself at that scale in the main newspaper, of the city you live in BUT at the same time it’s a bit strange too. I did feel a bit over whelmed, slightly shy and extremely honored about it really, very mixed emotions. I had never even in my wildest dreams had ever thought I would make it to a newspaper in Australia and so I’m still a bit shaken by the love, respect and attention I have received.

The simple story of my encounter with the beautiful Aboriginal man in my low days is an extremely strong symbol of  how welcoming, helpful the people here are. I had read the below quotation years ago, but after meeting this man, I realized it’s actually true.

The true meaning of life is to plant trees, under whose shade you do not expect to sit.  ~Nelson Henderson

I was sad and lonely sitting on a bench in the city one day, in my own world dreaming of a better day, and suddenly saw him sitting next to me on the bench, made me jump up my guts, scared and at first I didnt want to talk to him and told him, “No English, sorry!” when he said,” kan ya spare a dollaa!”. Even though I acted like such a weirdo, he still was nice to me and asked me why I was sitting there all alone. At that time, I had no friends, no family and no one to even talk to and someone had shown the tiniest of concern for me. I felt so HAPPY…and told him how I have come from Pakistan, where I used to work as an artist and have been rejected as ‘over qualified’ when looking for a job here and was finding it so difficult to adjust in this new culture and so on. He was polite and listened carefully and told me the directions to a shop in the western suburbs where his artist friend used to buy pottery and paint it.

I never met that man again, I’ve dreamt about him  many times tho. I wanted to gift him one of my bowls but I guess he didnt help me for a bowl, he helped me because he just did. He was an angel for me who guided me to my path. I feel extreme pleasure in knowing he was a true aboriginal man, who belonged to this land who got me started. It means the world to me that he welcomed me here with such open arms and chatted to me on the day I felt lonely and he will always be there in my prayers. I just hope and aim to be following his footsteps and one day help someone like me to believe in their dreams and welcome them into this land of good people.


To the lamp of love:  may it burn brightest in the darkest hours and never flicker in the winds of trial.  ~Author Unknown


Rocks, as I see them

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‘Rocks…As I See Them’ is a project I came up with in the past two days. I decided to walk down to the creek close to my house, and start painting the rocks…not for money or any kind of material exchange but only because I felt the need to. I did think maybe to go to the council to get permission first…but something extremely strong within kept saying, ‘you’re NOT doing anything wrong, you’re only doing it as an act of worshiping, and whatever happens deal with it when it happens, for now just do it!’, so followed my voice again without any questions.

On reaching there, the first thing I felt was that the dried creek to me looked like the condition of the world to me. Each rock symbolizing a person, a life or a being. The water, which was meant to be there had dried, so these rocks have been exposed and left naked. I walked up and down the creek, and picked whichever one called me and started painting, one by one.

While painting, I looked up and wondered, if my ‘one’ rock that I paint would make a difference at all, when I looked from a distance, it was totally invisible and lost amongst the other unpainted ones, because there were more of them than the painted one. I felt that ‘one’ was how i felt in the world, being on my own in this massive world of all these other big huge rocks(people), and if at all i matter. A moment later I heard a reply:

“Just because it’s not visible in the big picture doesn’t mean it doesn’t exist. To some you might be just another person in the world, but to some you are their world, so don’t worry too much about being visible or not, just be the real you, and always remember, the creek can have a thousand rocks, but you are still you and that’s more important!”

A moment later, again my restless brain wondered again, “If the pattern i see on the rock isnt even going to be visible to anyone, then why am I painting this?!”… again the voice replied:

“The bird flies everyday, do you stop to look at it?! The fishes are swimming, do you stop and look at them?! Just because no one is going to be looking at them, they don’t stop doing what they are meant to do!! Your calling is to ‘see’ people beyond what’s visible. See and hear their souls and bring to the world that mystic side of things, so people can understand and enjoy the magical universe we all live in.”

Being a warm day, Henna started drying really quickly and looked almost invisible, blending into the skin of the rocks. And as we know the brain just never stops working, my fear was, “it’s drying so quickly, oh no!! i should stop doing this and take pictures… aah my work is going to be lost!!!!!!”. Suddenly the birds started chirping extremely loudly, flew in one direction and the wind blew heavily for a few seconds totally helping me to come back to the moment, and I heard the voice again:

“It’s NOT about holding on to what you do and who you are. It’s all about moving on, learning, giving without expecting, growing and doing what you’re meant to do this moment and NOT worry about keeping it forever, because it’s seriously a useless exercise, that does nothing but make you jump into the future, that doesnt exist this second”

Usually when I paint, I have really REALLY LOUD music in my ears to block away any distractions. But while painting these rocks, I felt the immense need to connect more to the nature and listen to the surroundings to absorb the energy that would show through my patterns, as a reflection. As i put down the first rock after painting it, I realized that’s exactly what I do, when I paint people. I see through them, reaching out to their real inner self, bring it out on their skin and make them see a mirror, and till the Henna stays on them they remember me and themselves and feel happy, safe and alive.

This morning when I woke up, the first thing I read is the poem below. After reading this how can someone not believe in the magic of the world?!

You’ve no idea how hard I’ve looked for a gift to bring You. Nothing seemed right. What’s the point of bringing gold to the gold mine, or water to the ocean. Everything I came up with was like taking spices to the Orient.

It’s no good giving my heart and my soul because you already have these.

So, I’ve brought you a mirror.

Look at yourself and remember me.
- Jalaluddin Rumi

So many people as me, “How do I do it?!” I don’t really know…all I know is i don’t see you with my eyes, I feel you in my soul. With one look at you, you become my God. With a single touch on your skin, I start worshiping the sacred light inside you. It’s like a recharge for me. I touch, I feel and I live. I didn’t learn or practice this…I was born with it and i don’t know if something like this can be analyzed and taught to anyone through books or any other medium. You’ll have to breath in my soul to be able to experience and see things and people the way I do.

Try not to just see the rocks…try to feel, touch, hold and be with them. They do have magical powers as most things in the world. Enjoy your power within.

To see more pictures www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=425558&id=649730112

Fishy Ying Yang

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A few months ago, I received an email from Simon Lofler, in regards to creating a design, for a Tshirt competition www.newint.com.au/shop/tshirt-choice.htm by New Internationalist www.newint.com.au/. The design is still up for voting on their site www.newint.com.au/shop/tshirt-choice.htm so if you have time and you like any of the Tshirts then please do vote and support local artists.

Themes given to work with were, ‘ Sustainability, Peace, Permaculture, Multiculturalism,  Renewable energy, Education, Women’s Rights, Climate Change / Climate Justice’. All of them resonate with my thinking and so I decided to give it a shot and see what comes.

Ying Yang being one of my favorite peace symbols, was my first choice to begin with. I started working with the idea, ‘I know we dont look the same, but we can still dance together’. I did the first sketch of ying yang fishes, and surrounded them with the swirls, as you would think I would do!! It looked a bit weak, so I decided to work with the idea, ‘Start by saving one drop of water, because it to you it’s just a drop but to some it’s their life’… the design started looking a bit too strong. Looking through books, magazines and other tshirt designs, I thought of just making the fishes so strong that they will just stand out themselves without anything needed around them, so then came the third design. The last design was just working with making the fishes stronger again, but really they started looking a bit scarrrrryyy !!

After trying these out, I gave up because the submission line was the next day, as it’s always so much closer than you think!!! So emailed Simon, told him cant to it and he said he liked the second one, couldn’t believe my eyes when I read that!! Anyway, decided to just send it to him to make him happy and also to keep my promise to him.

It’s my first T shirt design, LOVED making it and hope I can continue making some more. Many thanks to Simon for making me think outside the box and utilize my patterns on a different canvas. Hope you enjoy the designs!!!

Henna